I’ll always need you, but Thesis comes first….
I’ve addressed you several times now, deleted most since there was no reaction AT ALL and I’m starting to get pissed.
Since you never asked or reacted I just assume that our line is closed, yes? So Meg simply walks out of the bar and Tara lets her go, right?
Just that I know. Thank you. No reaction will be counted as approval
He smiled against her Lips. “There won’t be someone else, never.” he said humming. Castiel nodded. “I say the same, I love who you are as well…” and what you will become. He finished in his mind. He moved away from her and was clothed immediately. He let his Wings vanish and clothed her as well. It felt almost too easy how he could use his new power. “yes and be careful, i don’t know if Luzifer already knows what I become.” he said frowning.
Meg still smiled, hiding that she became more and more scared, and sat on the rim of her bed. Even though she didn’t want him to leave she knew that she had to, although that was the exact opposite from her orders. She watched Castiel get clothed and suddenly felt hers on her body as well, which made her look down. “I bet he will soon”, Meg murmured, avoiding his gaze. “But he’s occupied right now.”
He leaned into her touch and closed his eyes. “I’m not sorry.” He said in a sarcastic tone. “I will never regret that you were my first.” He said lowly and played with her hair. “I glad that I can make you feel better, worst human being I am.” he smirked. He hummed at her Kiss and sighed. “I have to go to Dean and Sam, they need to know what happened.”
Meg chuckled and grinned, but both expressions froze when he reminded her of that fact. She pressed her lips against his again, more passionately. “I’ll make sure, I’ll be your last”, Meg murmured against his mouth, before she pulled back again. “I don’t really care what you are, Cas, just who you are, because that’s … what I love.” she swallowed, tilted her head and smiled at him, giving a nod. “Yeah, sure”, she slid down from his chest. “And I’ll try to avoid everyone.”
He was about to say something but she started talking and he listened to her clearly. He clenched his Jaw and pressed her a little closer. He smiled briefly at her last words. Now he knew he could still help her. “I’m there for you.” He said low, kissing her forehead “always”. He was still deliberating if he should tell her what he knew. Maybe she knew it herself deep down. She was still crying and he felt his Chest ache. He moved the wing that laid on her back and let it slid softly over her spine with his pinion.
Meg kissed him gently as Cas told her that he’d be there for her. “I know”, she whispered, stroking his cheek, smiling, even though she still was crying. “Uhg, tears”, she wiped them of her face. “I don’t remember the last time I actually had them. It’s all you fault”, she teased. “You make me all clean and nice again.” She kissed him more intensely. “That’s why I couldn’t forget you kissing me”, she murmured against his lips.
Tara stumbled backwards as Meg pushed her aside then gritted her teeth as Meg continued to call her names and call her out on her mistakes. “I used you.” She repeated the demons words. “I. Used. You.” Tara emphasized on every word with her voice growing higher and her eyes wider. “Because that is all you will ever be good for. Darkness, meaningless sex, and helping me realize that I don’t want to travel down the destructive road you’ve paved for yourself. I don’t want to end up like you.” She let a smirk escape from her lips while gesturing a hand up and down the demon’s figure. “I mean, look at yourself, Meg. You manipulate humans and con them into thinking you’re actually what you talk yourself up to be.” Tara shook her head and ran a hand through her blonde locks as yet another pity laugh left her mouth. “You did me a huge favor. It may have taken the blood of a demon to help me realize that I don’t need darkness in my life for me to know exactly where I stand in my friend’s lives but one thing’s for sure; I won’t end up like a washed up, heartless being such as yourself.” She then paused long enough to get a good look at Meg’s eyes, making sure they were on her before speaking once more. “I did want attention, I’ll admit to that. But as of right now, I’m above you. I’ll always be above you. Why? Because I’m human. I have light inside of me.” Tara’s eyes never left Meg’s as she spoke words of truth. “You’ll always be a demon. You will always have dark inside of you.”
“And that’s supposed to hurt me?” Meg rose her brows and tilted her head with a slight smile. “Listen to yourself. You’re using everyone around you and cloak it behind your fake innocence. I was just stating facts, and you know it”, she shrugged. “You still forget that I can red your mind, little witch. It wasn’t you that turned around, it was Zoé’s disgust. You did that all because of a girl who doesn’t want you. All because of your own pain and then you’re not even strong enough to get yourself out of the hole you dug yourself. You need others again. Use others again. And you want to teach me?” Again Meg laughed and didn’t flinch, didn’t avoid her gaze. Furthermore she crossed her arms before her chest with a smug smirk. “And there you’re wrong, Tara. You have darkness inside you, even more than before. You’re tainted, you’ve tainted yourself. And apart from me, you can only get darker. I can only get lighter. You have to fight against it, all I have to do is choose. Your friends will always ask themselves when you fall again”, she took a step closer. “I can’t fall, only soar.” She winked at her and turned around to walk away.
Tara clenched her jaw and balled her hands into fists at the tone of Meg’s voice. She understood completely why the demon didn’t want anything to do with her but she still had questions of her own that needed answering. “Look, I’m sorry if I ruined any of your plans but for awhile, you killed whatever good that was left inside of me and I’ll live with regret for the rest of my life so the least you could do is tell me what I need to know.” Tara’s voice rose in anger and she felt her knees begin to quiver along with her hands trembling frantically as she left the bar and stepped outside to a nearby ally then waited until the two were in a secluded place to finish. “Am I still marked? How long will it take for you to leave my system? I’m done being torn between what’s right and wrong. I honestly don’t know anymore but I have a feeling things will become crystal clear until your blood no longer runs through my veins.”
“Oh, yes, blame it on the demon. It wasn’t me drinking in all the dark magic, bitch”, Meg hissed at her. Of course humans always blamed it on someone else. So much easier than taking the responsibility for their own choices. “Go, fuck yourself, Tara. I won’t tell you the tiniest thing”, Meg laughed at her and continued laughing. “Oh my, you’re even more pathetic than I thought. Ugh, embarrassing that I thought I could make something out of you.” She shook her head. “You should thought about that, before you bailed.”
@Meg sleep well an hopefully without nightmares
woho! I knew you had it in you! - sleep well!
Meg moved slightly, to pull him out of her, but still rested on Castiel’s chest. Feeling his wing on her skin felt so gentle, more like air than like actual feathers. They didn’t burn her, just tingled. She nuzzled against his warm chest, still crying, and placed her hands around his face, kissing him again. There was a fiery cloud in her chest, which made it hard to breath and the pain grew the more the aftermath of her climax wore off. Meg trembled even though she wasn’t freezing. She knew that something was happening to her. “I can’t really remember how old I am”, she whispered. “I know I’ve spend thousands of years in hell. I know Azazel was my father and he sired me when he was a demon already. I never was fully human, but I start to remember how it feels”, she continued with a shaky voice. “It can be even worse than torture. But you make it better.”
trying to answer as much as I can before I fall asleep
you don’t have to, just go to bed. I’ll come with you.
stupid Work and Stupid holidays -.-
It’s okay, honey.
Tara saw the demon try and brush past her and simply rolled her eyes. This had to be done. “Meg.” Tara called the other woman out and closed her eyes to take in a deep breath, instantly regretting not bringing Faith with her. She would have felt much safer with her best friend, the slayer. “I don’t know if an apology will cut it so I won’t waste my breath saying I’m sorry. What’s done is done.” She said trying to keep her voice calm and low, already starting to feel her hands tremble. Just being around the demon got her nerves jittery and each time Tara got a good whiff of the woman’s power, it sent unexplainable sensations throughout her body.
“Leave me alone, you pathetic meatsack”, Meg hissed at her, like a pissed-off cat. “You said it, what’s done is done. You’re not worth my company, so sod off.” She really wasn’t in the mood for playing PG-13 right now and right here in public she couldn’t simply jump head-first into R. Meg walked on, feeling this odd ache inside her, a burn like hunger, just that is was right there were the heart of her very own meat-suit was. For a moment she thought her fingers were on fire. She blinked and at least her sight was back to normal. She couldn’t meet her father in this condition and Tara just irritated her.
Days seemed to pass more slowly than usual while Tara was in recovery at Faith’s. Being there with her best friend had in fact helped her more than she it would but it was time Tara started getting out on her own and facing the world without wanting to destroy it. As she left Faith behind to rest, Tara knew exactly where she needed to go first and what she needed to do. She needed to find Meg and get over the silly fear she had for the demon.
The first place that came to mind was The Pit, the bar Meg had introduced to her when she was traveling down the road of darkness. Tara would start there and hopefully Meg would sense her coming and either meet her there or stay put if she was already at the bar. Then with a deep breath, Tara stepped into the darkened bar and scanned her icy blue eyes across the crowd with her senses at their peak, seeing if she could see or sense the demon in the vicinity.
After Castiel had left again, she needed a drink. He made her feel this ridiculously weak, but safe and most of all more and more long forgotten memories flashed through her mind: emotions, experiences, people she knew she had once known. She sighed and made ordered another drink. Meg was about to bring the glass to her lip as she sensed the witch. Their bond had grown weaker and weaker with every day Tara digested more and more of her blood, cleansing it out of her system. She despised that little bitch who had run before the training had even started. Meg had absolutely no interest in meeting Tara. She killed the shot and placed the mony on the counter, trying to leave before the girl would find her.
even though Meg has sensed that you have abandoned her, she hasn’t searched you out. If you want to, you can write a starter in which you two bump into each other, or you end up meeting her in a bar.
(I’d say that there has happened more between the two in the line we couldn’t finish because of your computer-issue)
Edit: I’d like to see the roles reversed one day, when Meg is human and realizes that she can wield magic ^^ - just an idea
He knew what happens when they do it and was not sure if he could stand another outbreak of her Human Emotions but the way she looked at him like that, made him insane. He crawled on the bed and placed himself between her Legs. He enfolded her Face with his hands and kissed her softly. His Wings were slighty moving with his Motions and he forced her down, one Hand under her Back.
Meg tilted her head into the other direction and grinned widely as Castiel finally moved towards her. His glance made her shiver in anticipation. She grabbed the collars of his coat and shirt as he enfolded her face and replied in to his kiss likewise. His gentleness gave her goosebumps. Meg let him push her down and she could hear his wings move. “Cas”, she murmured against his lips and rand her hands from his collar into his hair. It felt so different when she was with him, like she could breathe without restriction.
Her almost submissive behavior was a little strange but also arousing. He moaned at her Words and with a blink of an eye they stood in a dark motelroom but the slight glow of his Wings lit it up a bit. He was still kissing her Neck and had her in his Arms. He couldn’t believe how much he missed this. He shifted to the bed and laid her down. For a Moment he just stood there and watched her.
His self-confidence and the way everything seemed to be so simple all of the sudden confused her a bit, but she also liked it. The glow of her wings made her shudder. After all she was still a demon and now he wouldn’t even have to touch her, if he wanted to kill her. Meg moaned due to his kissing and it was cold when he moved away from her. She supported herself on her arms, tilting her head and looked at Castiel, biting her lower lip.
He chuckled at her Reaction but got more and more aroused. She got this Effect on him and he liked it. He pushed his Hips against her and nagged on her Neck. “should we… change the location?” He breathed on her Ear.
“Oh my…” Meg gasped as he pushed his hips more against her. Why did he make her more an more horny every time they met? Just like every time a little more numbness was washed off of her. A icy shiver ran through her body when he breathed into her ear. “Whatever you want, Cas”, Meg murmured, licking his neck and pressing her chest against his. “Whatever you want.”
Castiel felt his Body reacting and moaned. He moved her Hands down behind her thighs, on the way he stroked her Butt. He lifted her up easily and pressed her against the wall. He got used to this behavior cause everything he did felt right with her. And he was aroused by the fact that he really impressed her with his new status. He moved his Lips over her Jaw to her Neck and hummed against her Skin.
As soon as Castiel’s hand reached her rear Meg felt a tickle run through her body and she shivered with a hum, gasping when he suddenly lifted her up to press her against hard material. “Oh, Cas”, she exhaled shallowly, burying her freed hand into his hair and ripping at his tie with the other, while she pressed her head against the wall to expose her neck more to him.
He sighed and placed his Hands on the Wall next to her Head. “I missed you, very.” he said and gasped just after, as she started to rub his crotch. That forced him to kiss her again. He hummed into her Mouth and his right Hand grabbed her Hair. “So.” He breathed. “I guess you missed me too then.” he smirked against her Lips. Kissing her still felt perfect and he licked her Lips slightly.
Meg placed her free hand on his chest, fondling with the buttons of his shirt, responding to his kiss with a high sigh. Meg gasped as he gripped her hair. “Yes”, he replied in a mixture of whisper and hiss, looking at him through narrowed eyes. When he licked her lips she was on fire all over again. Maybe he didn’t notice, but he had changed. She was much more self-confident, but Meg didn’t mind. If he wanted to Cas could do absolutely everything with her right now.
He blinked and shrugged at her sudden touch. He inhaled some Air and pressed himself against her. “And I notice that you didn’t changed neither.” He said deep and kissed her with more Passion. Castiel was glad to see that she approved his new State.
“Not really”, Meg shrugged and gasped slightly as Cas pressed himself against her, since she had expected the opposite. But she didn’t mind at all. Meg welcomed his lips realizing in the second they touched hers how much she had missed kissing him. She felt a strange pain in her chest but ignored it and started to rub her hand against his crotch.